Out Of the bluezzz

Hi Guys,
I'm back . probably not for long. i'm talking abt blogging.


Where do i start from. Probably where i left off few months back, but thats too long. Yes, i've came back from the States and i spent the best time of my life there. So as to say, i'm definately going back there again- with my family. =)

My attachment ended as soon as it starts and i'm just a few days away from serving my nation.
besides that, i'm having this persistent head pain for 3 weeks. peeps thnik i'm hallucinating or i came down with depression but facts that ear problem, throbbing head pain, loss of co-ordination, is it psychological if its felt everyday- while some days were very bad. well, i'm not an optmistic person to start with, but i know this have to be treated in due time.

Remember my birthday party i had on my 21st? haha, i was reading through my post when i found that i've lost mr sim in my circle of friends. It wasn too hard for me to get pass him. i just feel bad i carn be the friend that he seeks. simply, he forsaken me. that comes to a point when i start to think of how many guys (Man, boy) friends i really have in my life. Well.... sadly, sparingly FEW.

i can even count them by my fingers (even after chopping off a few). How possibly a person like me who likes musculine man, dun even get a guy friend? not even least, a sissy friend. i can understand when guys are simple minded. absolutely stuck in the nth box for life. very consistent in thinking, for eg, common interest - revloving around matters like soccer, girls, work and how to boost their manly ego's. i get that. Maybe army will change me and i'm willing to do just that. though thats risk taking, i guess its probably good in a way. People changes. for example, like how i found out my besties turns lesbain after so many time of confession that she will never like a girl and how girls making out with another of same sex makes her nausea.

i'm flabber-gasted. =)

i know my weakness actually. Being easily manupilated, i also flirt with guys (almost any guys) over-excessively. i oftenly talks alot, forgets alot and stoned alot. and I DO Agree i'm VERY FUNNY.
But being sucessful in life is not making a fool out of urself by being Funny. so yea. kinda time to wake up.

by the way, one thing. I still love joel.T alot. (my next post, probably)
Thanks for the ranting. and being a nuisance once again.

SiongSiongBEar loves Joe.T, Joel and Jovien, his friend, family on 17 August 2010!