First day @ WOP Restaurant

it wasn good. FNB really sucks... the number of staffisn enough to cater to the massive number of people entering the restuarant for all the 3 meal periods. servers were constantly on the run, holding trays to serve, clear and set up tables. my hands couldn take the pressure and it trembles. totally unbearable.. seems like i've alot of arm training to do...

1) on top of this, i've a pretty bad day. pretty pissed with mr sim. it just feel totally different after he's aware i like him. and of course, i do. but in a way or so, he behaving very wierd towards me. i get that point (as being friends) across. and i like his frankiness... but it seems to me, he emphasis it so frequent nowadays, that i feel he went overboard. its acts like an excuse for something... something that i dun know.
why ? why is he trying to make things so hard for me than it alr is...
i dun wan to give up this friendship.

if it was for nicholas (a friend i like too), things would be so much better, greater, brighter...
i dun wish to make comparison, i just feel that mr sim is changing. just felt like if this keeps going on, he is probably gonna use that same excuse to dire me off his life.
the manipulation feeling i hated, the lack of freedom to speak... is coming back.!.
or am i just thinking too much...
- it not abt ur dogs, its ur sincerity.

2) Nicholas might 'fly me an areo-plane' today, but i dun really mind. he is always like this.for the fact that i know i've stolen a bit of his heart, no matter where he goes and wat he does, i can sense it... that he is doing fine. that security aura... i am pretty sure, no one can sense it like i do. Nicholas is my lifetime boyfriend, one i can never live without and one he never wants to leave.

i'm staying up to accompany june who have a broken leg, residing in a hospital now. and apparentanly, she's sleeping. i'm really beat after all These SHITS. especially that guy above. Totally disheartened.

SiongSiongBear Loves Joel and Jovien, remembers Joe.T on 12 August 2009!