WHole World in my hands (contin'd)

Last week of holiday

Things are picking up rather well. There was lot of preparations to be done jus before school curriculum commerce. I need to clear unwanted stuff up, replenish stationeries, gather time schedule and booklist, apply for Higher Diploma… (list goes on). Most importantly, my emotions. Without a qualm, has been very unstable and unpredictable. I missed him.

Well, he sent me a mail last week. My mind went blank a moment, fore head temp raising. Dumbfound by the wordy messages. after i read, I was certainly piss and I knew instantly I am not going to send a reply cos my word will all be in FLAMED and he is gonna ‘ShutmioffentirelyfromthenOn’. Till now, I haven got anything to reply yet. Not cos I dun know wat to say, I just dun know where and how to begin. Mail sux. It doesn really convey wat I want him to see and be heard of. Due to my poor skill in communication through words, gap for misconceptions is even greater. Perhap, I dun reply… probably that’s the best solution for us. He might not want my reply either. Cos the current situation is not gonna aid us to anywhere good. My words might just add fuels to the fire.

-All i can say is I like him very much, so if that’s wat he wants from us… … I will respect that. i know i'll do things implusively. i am sorry for that, but there is a bigger picture behind this implusiveness. why not take a moment to understand the reasons behind it? Its not easy for us who travels on different frequencies to be tgt. however, I believe love can break any boundaries but i know it too hard for u to handle at this moment.

upon realisation, its too silly to say i'll wait for him.

I want to move on... a life without him in the picture for the moment. I gave in too much feelings which creates much pressure for him. I'll need to learn right. i need to pick up fault i've did and make sure i will not repeat it. he is RIGHT. i needed a guy... another guy who share the same pulses as me. " But Why isn it you, baby?"i paused.

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I’m still rather moody, but I am going to constantly poke myself to wake up. I need to be readily prepared for school. I have to give in my best shot for the last term of my theoretical study in SHATEC. There is no time for procrastination when you are now going to prepare writing/sending resumes as well as going for interviews. No kidding, a year internship is pretty tough to get by. With so many things to apply from our studies, so many things to learn from hands on training, I doubt it be easy. I’m Shivering when I start to imagine. I’m not gonna stress enough that I would be ready, confident and determine to do a good job by then. Worst come to worse a mediocrity one, hopefully still be able to survive.

So what have I done for this week….
Practically I did nth much.
Probably I did. One particular thing that keeps me up day and night. I am keeping it a SECRET. If things looks promising… then I’ll announce.

Cycling in East coast park

Sin yi


Johnathan, Sin yi, Bellinda (secondary classmates)

Bellinda was injured, she fell off the bike TWice. The first she flew forward as the bike's tyre friction against sinyi's bike tyre. Injure her knee and broke her spect. Second, she couldn see wat was infront. When i stopped my bike, she continued to cycle and BAng.. she fal off again, as well as...

Swollen eye lid

Torn my shirt.

In a cab, random shot. Skyscrapers

Singapore Flyer

Pre- school open activity - take my last few shot of my red hair

It looks like cums. yucks. but i like to amuse my friends with it.

That is totally unglamourous
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NielSen Playground

Angela ( supervisor)

We had fun in the company. I was doing my Cati, and angela disturbed with my queries to settle. I dun think i'm an incapable staff here, but i like my job.

Dun look at her smile and thinks she is a modest woman. her voice is constantly loud and has enough decibal to break a glass at point of time.

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PLAY- the 'L' word event

Night with jey is a promiscous one. If u tell urself u want to be open to a HELLLOTof fun tonight, be sure u will have it. She will push ur limit and yes, i went high that night. The L word event was a typical competition by voting one of the 3 contestant to be the winner for being the best representation over a cast in the show. rather boring... the only time, i was shoke to my senses was when the contestant stripe upper half naked, but of course, they covered their breasts. I almost puke on the part...

J-YO

We drank and played alot alot alot...

Stella (Teresa's friend) and jey

The three contestant

Prize giving

random

HEY! teresa went groggy afer puking.

Guy went crazy, hang onto the strip poles and climb up and down a couple of time.

Lauren, a lady jazreel picked up when i was high. She left mi with another girl.

Maxis, she is lauren friend.

at this point of time, i need to clarify something. I was high and wasn clear wat i was doing. all i know she came forward when jazreel couldn handle mi steadily. and then she babbled and said that she loves gay MEN. i was pretty pls with her word. then i landed kiss on her lips. she resisted, i stop. next she initaited... and it went on and on. WTH!! Am i in the right frame of mind....i couldn believe i'm writing this down. Damnit. all i wan to say is, my mind is flooded with pictures of him wen we kissed..i felt so sorry for this lady, prehap she doesn mind being a substitute that time, sigh...

but i did enjoy that night as i let my heart out LOUD... PLU HOORAY!!!

SiongSiongBear loves Jovien and Joel on 29 January 2008!

- definition of love is unique to each individual

To love is willingness to let it go

Set myself free

Set urself free

give us a chance to breatheN a chance to see a better future

i love u

i assume u felt my sincerity too

till the day we meet again as better and stronger friendz

-.babyJoe & SSbear.-