Whole world in my hands (contin.)

Second week

This week is my life is filled with anguish. i'm at the lowest point in life, i have no idea wat to do. lots of time for gazing, stoning and petrifying. No point saying, its over. some random event to keep mi active, though most of the time, i am obliged to do this. and i need to...

Bears... u carn bear with mi anymore?

Boredom in nielsen


Even worse when there's no one around.

On christmas eve night, i went out with my usual bunch of clique. We sang in k-box till 6 in the morning. yes, i had a great time. But at some point of time when i thought of him. my heart sunk. its like making my toughest decision in life, i'm clueless which would be the best option to my question, i'm desperate... for something...

All stuck in this miniature room

u know who. i miss him.

Joel in a bag. he is my christmas present!!

i love this shot. wat u think.?

I love animals, especially those fierceful one. not cos they're violent. they can be the gracious being at times.The reasons they adorable, i enjoy going to the zoo. WHO WAN tO SUPPORT MI in providin mi with a free Zoo & night safari Membership?! I wan to bring JOel too, i'm sure he will love it too.

Sickening photo. I look damn fat alrite. stupid stripe shirt.

COusinz forever!

Night safari HooRAY!!

Angels !

Ben&Jerry- i never like ice creams. but children does. i am his temp PAPA... good father i am

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RIght after christmas was over, i went down to my uncle's salon to do my hair again. this time my sis followed. I wan my hair to be RED! apparently, my uncle was trying to mix and match colour so that my hair will get the desired colour in the least round of bleaching and shortest time possible. He toyed with my hair! and of course, it failed. so he gave up and do with the traditional bleach-higlight method again.

Uncle working on sis hair

initial unachieved hair color (uncle on right hand side)
Finale.
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When matters turns out for the worst, i listened to my friends and became active to keep myself very busy. Extremely busy, cos i choose to be. I am glad my friend were ard to support me. At times when all i could do is sit, stare and cry, i'll looked up to them. they are willing to lend mi their shoulders to cry on. YES! THEY. I'm not gonna brag abt how fortunate i am to have that many friends who understands and are willing waste their time on mi in the 'GAY' affair. unfortunately, they are god damn str8. ALL str8 like a metalic ruler, if its bend , its broken. (lets learn new term, do u know when its broken, they term these people as Broke Str8 Boy??) That explains why i usually break ruler(s), i dun do that by accident. (thanks Sara, for buying free rulers for mi)

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Let see who came to our class chalet, i wasn hoping for many students, cos this dates for this chalet came in as rush and inconvenient for friends to participate. amazingly, it wasn such a let-down. ppl start flowing in after 630pm. I am glad those that did not turn up last year came. I haven wasted my chalet afterall. I felt a sense of pride when i see them enjoying themselves, catching up on everything that has happened to them over the years and reunited over a bbq meal. Time flew fast, but our feelings remained unchanged. one of the best class chalet i had, hopefully we all did.

Kamala came back from malaysia!

Antonio, rino, huat lee, murale, yan ling and sham (back to front)

Kamala, tharini, yanling, sham (clockwise from btm left)

GRoup Shot!very nice! some hot boys i see...

Murale is my secondary hugging buddy! and still counting...

2nd day in chalet... ALONE.

ALL ALONE...

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It was a lonesome night, i spent it entirely alone. watched 5 dvd, used my laptop for hours, sorting up files and folder, view a little of 'dirty' stuff, stared at desktop screen and stoned. I like the movie ' Mama Mia". i enjoys musical film, it is delighting when the music is able to influence one's mood. to keep mi happy, is simple when i choose to be.

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So in the course of waiting for somebody, i went out to sing in party world with Nielsen colleague. I needed this distraction and it came at the right time. bulleye. This is the first time we had this outing and it was worthwhile. better than being stuck in office all day and night. Its rare to see them enjoying themselves like this. i felt happy for them. Joy is infectious.

Mi, venetia (best working colleague), Wei Shyuan and headless Lewis (both supervisor)

Wei Shyuan and Lewis

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I admit that those supervisor can sing pretty well. especially Wei Shyuan, as she bow and thanks us humbly. wat a hell of a night they had. but nothing changes the fact that by the end of the day, i'm still waiting for him. and yes, i waited. probably abt 430am , i felt lethargic and i fell asleep with tears readily falling off as my eyelid closes. I love him, dun i ? i thought to myself.
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yup. i woke up. packed my stuff, went off and stoned all the way home. and sleep before i hit off to canadian. yet another day begins, a new beginning for mi too?

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SiongSiongBear Loves Jovien and Joel on 21 January 2009!

- definition of love is unique to each individual

To love is willingness to let it go

Set myself free

Set urself free

give us a chance to breathe

N a chance to see a better future

i love u

i assume u felt my sincerity too

till the day we meet again as better and stronger friendz

-.babyJoe & SSbear.-