Moving on Again..

I am tired of getting in and out of relationship.
This isn wat I need. It is just abt the thing I thought I needed.
I have been drifting in my sub-conscious mind for long.
I hate the fact that I do not have a clear stand in the relationship.
Possessing weakness that other party is able to manipulate my every action.
I felt deluded.

I woke up the next day, just to stumble across the same question.
This time, I capture my instinct right away.
Though I felt happy with this decision, it was filled with uncertainty.
It requires courage and initiative which are traits I do not have.
They might not be supportive of the idea.
They might get my intention wrong.
But I hope that they understand.

Awaiting in excitement. Pretty much clueless abt wat will happen in the future. At least I made it out- good- on my first move.

Especially this ONE guy I missed dearly…
5 month isn long, nor was it short, it could stretch longer, but nothing is gonna change the fact for the feelings I have for him.
Bearing ur words in mind, I hope that we can still do the thing we normally do tgt again.
At least, I dun wan to be a forgotten soul.
Just wanna apologise for being a pest the other time as well.
We could have been better friends if I did not let my feeling take control the first time we met.

Thanks for ALL other PLU friends who have supported me spontaneously along the way.
U’re the man, my man.
Let’s live a healthy lifestyle, dudes!

So wats my decision? make a guess, taggers.
Gee… I really hope it goes well, like wat my friend says ‘take baby steps at a time, dun rush through.’

SiongSiongBear Loves Jovien and Joel, remembers Joe.T on 02 may 2009.