Disrespectful and disrespected

I'm starting to feel numb with the results i see ... initally was hard to cope and now, even harder... but i managed to cool myself down...just wanna to comment something..
POLY rules sux, they dun respect us... wats wrong with getting into a course i wanted ever... priorties goes to the fresh grad, so wat the big deal... do they really wanted that?? wat u wan... i already got ur desired grades, and now this... i really cannot accept the fact that i am going to hell soon... I just wan to study, y stopping mi.. i am not ready for other things yet. i am just not ready...

Temasek poly, Ngee ann poly and even republic poly dun even want a capable student. it doesn make sense at all. MY food SCience ... i so sick,sad,hurt and confused...i dun wish to kill myself but i am force to... just so doesn make sense...

especially ngee ann poly, they even gave mi a incorrect password to check my status. it means that they didn put students under DAE as impt candidates (students) in their school. When they gave mi my new password, needless to say, the answer has already pictured clearly in my mind. i am not crictising abt NP onli, its applicable to others...
they dun even give a damn what situation we r in at the moment, when results out, they dun even want to post up this news abt checking results under their schools' 'Latest update' , whereas for JAE, they do... shit man (except for RP,cos they admit more students from other country)

i feel like crying now, but for these few months, i had already did that countless time, but it didn help much to ease my pain... the wound is there forever. have i done everything i could or was there something lacking...

siong, u need to accept ur fate.. u r just unlucky u have been into the wrong course and had became an ex poly student, this offence will stay by ur side forever...and has been cursing u since then...

My dream life have come to an end as soon as it started...can';t forget the moment how i really enjoy my days in class learning Food and nutrition, doing projects and dreaming of becoming some famous R&D food excutive..haha...so much fun even though miss zaihana was so strict , i managed to make her laugh too... i love to do research work on food ! love eating them away too...haha...fun time ever... thanks, al my previous fnn teacher, too bad i got a A2 for all the effort, but i really tried my best, onli for one question in section B for O levels, there's this very unusual question which is out of fnn textbook content, cause mi 6/8 marks i think... i wan to take that exam again !'

anyway, its already over... no more thoughts abt it... anyway, not many ppl in singapore also live their own dreams... i be one of them, haha...not the oni unlucky ones. just a pity that my ambition onli lasted till secondary school.

Siongsiongbear, 359am,6th april 07