NOt alone, i guess....

hi , guys... personal time...
nths been up lately, lying home taking care of my grandma, watching serial drama but most importantly waiting for my O's result again.. still can't believe i failed my main language the last time... guess i'm too confident... just be the person who thinks that u can fail all subject would not give in to english, suddenly it just slips aways unexpectedly... just couldn accept the fact and there goes my business course and life science if not worse... initially i blamed the educational system for not providing more subject for the normal stream, but it was always that 'selfish' cos we are too normal to take in more, just accept it...

for now, i just wish to pass this subject and move on at this crictical moment to my future, moving to further studies in poly under my fav course or not (if unlucky) or to serve national service which is not the way i wanted... i know i must move on but the result will be out this friday, what i can do now ...is it to wait in excitment ?well, more of a fear , or best if i wish i could avoid it,i wan but its impossible....

ha, to think now i do not have that confident i used to be, will i pass ?

silly question to ask, but i have been pondering abt it and more for days... maybe i have condemmed myself here too long, someone needs to bail mi out and many had tried but failed in the end. only the answer that will be release the day after tomorrow will solve it all...

enough of it, at least today i brought jovien for a first time westies cut... a nice job well done it is...he looks more cuter and well prepared for the coming Chinese New Year (CNY)... while he's busy with his haircut, i did mine too , at least mine is 5 buck more expensive which mean i'm more imperative and i need more service than he does... i'm still his master after all...
So now i could say that we are prepared for the CNY, except for some clothes shopping...

comin to say abt CNY, it has been life changing experience whenever it came, why ?
1) its family reuion- the mood, the talks, the MAHjong and of course the family
2) HAve night life -while adults are having their mahjong time, we take our dogs for a nice walk through the nice breezy nite
3)receive red packet filled with $$
4) helping my parent out from mid-afternoon till the next morn-its overnite
5)all of the above

But i know that this is going to change this year, or nth is going well this year that resulted in this... with the situation i'm in, my cousin became so busy with her JC life, my grandma feeling sick these few months and my grandpa who decease last year, i felt like the family is breaking up.... how can anything be worse than this? is this something everyone will go through at this age of mine ? nvm, maybe i'm just pure stubborn, and i can't face the fact ....

Just trying hard to be open minded abt that from now... ....

SiongSiongBear, 7 feb, 1128pm